Sweet Baby Sam...

We've been on this adoption journey for over a year now. It's been a year of mostly ups so far, but as we get closer we are experiencing some of the "pains" of adoption pregnancy. The roller coaster ride of not really knowing a timeline, but thinking I might sorta have one figured out, to okay, maybe I don't have it figured out, has been, well, a ride!! :) But this last couple of weeks, for the first time, I've really felt that Sam has probably been born and the reality of what he and his parents/family might be going through right now has been weighing heavily on my heart. Having three children already, I know that immense love that exists from before your children are even born. Knowing that his mom is feeling that love for him and at the same time experiencing some severe issue that will cause her to have to let him go just breaks my heart! I am so grateful for a God who has a perfect plan for Sam and his life and for knowing that He loves and has a perfect plan for his mother as well brings me peace. But I know that doesn't mean that she won't have to experience the pain of losing a child. I pray for her daily. I pray for strength and I pray that God has put an understanding deep in her soul that the family who will adopt her little baby boy will love and cherish Him and raise Him to know the Lord and to know that his mom sacrificed out of love for him.